The purpose of my life is to be a Renaissance woman, someone like Leonardo Da Vinci, who dedicated himself to a variety of sciences and arts and excelled in all of them: I'm at my best when I have a life full of different tasks, and that's why I loved school so much, from kinder-garden to high school: I had lots of different subjects at the same time (up to 13), focusing in one at a time and then to the next, and I was the best in all of them; that's what I do: unlike the saying "Jack of all trades, master of none", I always achieved the best results by having a variety of things to do that allow me to not get bored, but at the same time having enough consistency to be steady in my life.
I remember when I was trying to choose my career, I had to choose between science, arts, cuisine, writing... and someone asked me what would be my ideal world, and I answered that if I could have a part-time job in each of these subjects, so I could cover them all, I would be so happy... Then why did I lost that idea for so long?
I realized around the 5th semester of University that Chemistry by itself wasn't fulfilling enough to me... and I thought it was because I had chosen the wrong career and should have gone for journalism... but that was just a part of the truth... Yes, my other vocation IS journalism, writing, copyediting (and I think is my main mission, the one that keeps everything together), but the reason I started feeling bad is because in the first 4 semesters I had other activities to do to complete the sports, social and cultural credits, in addition to the career ones: candles, filigrana, belly dance, volleyball, gym, swimming, sign language, leadership formation, alebrijes... all those things that help me to have variety, because a career is just a group of similar subjects, and that's what does not work for me.
Some people would say that I don't commit to anything, that I have to jump from one thing to the next (in jobs), as a lack of maturity and stability, but that is not true for me. If I haven't committed to any job is because all of them were partly right for me, but all of them have common thing between them, you can see a common subject on my resume, and each of them has brought me closer to my real mission, to find a job that I can have for the rest of my life.
Some other people would say that I love to accumulate knowledge and not put it into practice, but that is not true either: I do love to learn, and I'm at my best when I'm learning new things, I love to be an intelligent and cultivated person. But I also know that my mission is to pass that knowledge to others, but not so much as a teacher, but as a writer.
Then, my ideal world is one where I can have a job that allows me to write about many subjects, such as science, literature, food, cultural events, including taking pictures of them, and not just being a reporter, but someone who writes her own experience and knowledge, an expert in each of those subjects. And also this job, in a magazine of my own, either virtual or printed (like Algarabia), must allow me to be the leader, to regain my confidence and strength, and be my best self, by using all my potential...
And also I need to have time to sing in a choir, which I love, and do some exercise (aqua fitness and/or Jukari), some manual work like sewing, or painting; cooking, reading a lot, either in a library or a cool, nice, calm park; having more real friends, to which I can relate and show my true self, and be there for them and them for me; and time for my family, to have fun with them, travel with them, and relax with them. Also some volunteering too to appreciate what I have and help others who are less fortunate than me. And dedicate some time to God too, of course (this should be the first goal), so I can have a true happy existence in all the aspects of my life, by being happy myself and not keep searching outside.
It feels so good to write again, and be back on track.
Thanks for reading, whoever you may be.
-Aisha Soleil
